Real Life Strikes !

In the name of Allah the most gracious the most merciful.

Ohhai. Sudah lama tak menulis ni.
Too much of memendam rasa is not good for me.
I've been lost for all this while. i stop doing things that I love to do. I stop watching movies that I like. I didn't enjoy my life as much as I did before.

Alhamdulillah. I've passed my 3rd year in medical school and have almost 2 months holiday. I started to find every piece of me and yes, I've found them.
Medical life really takes my youth. I've been struggling with my inner conflict for almost 2 year but I still don't get over them. But at least, i've get rid almost of them.

i've been thinking hard about me during these 2 month. And now, I come back as 4th year medical student with new me InshaALLAH.

Done my first posting of 4th year by finishing Cardio Rehab Posting in Hosp Queen Elizabeth II in Kota Kinabalu Sabah. Im gonna spam with the picture later. Sabah is a very good place with nice people and environment.

currently, in dermatology posting. I had 3 days on and off of high fever on the day I came back to Ipoh. It wasn't really a good start. I threw up twice, my tonsils were swollen like hell and I couldn't swallow anything at all.

so, this is the beginning of real 4th year medical student of mine. :)

I sould write more often since I found back my real self. ;)

#np EXO- Miracle in December

English Translation:

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear

I see things that I couldn’t see before

I hear things that I couldn’t hear before

After you left me, I have grown a power that I didn’t have before

The selfish me who has only thought about myself

The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it

I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much

Your love can still move me like this

If I just think of you, I can fill this world with you

Because each snowdrop is one tear drop that belongs to you

But theres just one thing that I can’t do and it’s to make you come to me

I hope I don’t have this miserable power

The selfish me who has only thought about myself

The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it

I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much

Your love can still move me like this

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you

I open this book of memories and I open up your page

And in the book I’m in there, in there with you

The small and weak person, because of your love

Just like this for everything (my whole existence)

I changed the whole world

The me who didn’t know how to be thankful for love

The me who thought that the end was the end

To the image of you who wanted me to be, I fixed myself everyday

I think my love will continue on forever

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you

I open this book of memories and I open up your page

And in the book I’m in there, in there with you

The things that I met that winter

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear

Romanized:

Boiji annneun neol chajeuryeogo aesseuda

Deulliji annneun neol deureuryeo aesseuda

 Boiji anteon ge boigo

Deulliji anteon ge deullyeo

Neo nareul tteonan dwiro naegen eopdeon himi saenggyeosseo

Neul nabakke mollasseotdeon igijeogin naega yeah

Ne mamdo mollajwotdeon musimhan naega

Ireokedo dallajyeotdaneun ge najocha mitgiji anha

 Ne sarangeun ireoke gyesok nal umjigyeo

Nan saenggangman hamyeon sesangeul neoro chaeul su isseo eum~

Nunsongi hanaga ne nunmul han bangurinikka

Dan han gaji motaneun geoseun neol naegero oge haneun il

I sseuldeeomneun neungnyeok ijen eobseosseumyeon jokesseo ooh~

Neul nabakke mollasseotdeon igijeogin naega

Ne mamdo mollajwotdeon musimhan naega

Ireokedo dallajyeotdaneun ge najocha mitgiji anha

 Ne sarangeun ireoke gyesok nal umjigyeo

Siganeul meomchwo [D.O] nege doraga

 Chueogui chaegeun [D.O] neoui peijireul yeoreo

Nan geu ane isseo [D.O] oh~

Neowa hamkke inneun geol

 Aju jogeumako yakhan sarami neoui sarangi

 Ireoke modeun geol (nae sarmeul modu)

Bakkun geol (sesangeul modu)

Oh~ sarangi gomaun jul mollasseotdeon naega oh~

Kkeutnamyeon geumanin jul aratdeon naega oh~

Neo wonhaetdeon geu moseup geudaero nalmada nareul gochyeo ga

Nae sarangeun kkeuteobsi gyesokdoel geot gata

Siganeul meomchwo ([D.O] oh! Ije na)

Nege doraga ([Chen] nege doraga)

Chueogui chaegeun ([Chen] oh! Oneuldo)

Neoui peijireul yeoreo

Nan geu ane isseo oh~

Geu gyeoure wainneungeol

Boiji annneun neol chajeuryeogo aesseuda

Deulliji annneun neol deureuryeo aesseuda

Translation Credits: rainydays @ codeexo.com

Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.net