Eid Mubarak 2014.

In the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful.

First of all,
Selamat Hari Raya Eidul fitri to all muslims.

This year of Eid was the best out of all eid before this. This year, we managed to have our first family day and it was damn amazing. Im loving every each of it. Pictures will come later. 

One week eid holiday end tomorrow and I'm nowhere near ready to continue ptsychiatric posting. Still in holiday mood. 

AND

 I have a lot of new drama that I addicted to. 

The list will come later. hehe

that's all !

Real Life Strikes !

In the name of Allah the most gracious the most merciful.

Ohhai. Sudah lama tak menulis ni.
Too much of memendam rasa is not good for me.
I've been lost for all this while. i stop doing things that I love to do. I stop watching movies that I like. I didn't enjoy my life as much as I did before.

Alhamdulillah. I've passed my 3rd year in medical school and have almost 2 months holiday. I started to find every piece of me and yes, I've found them.
Medical life really takes my youth. I've been struggling with my inner conflict for almost 2 year but I still don't get over them. But at least, i've get rid almost of them.

i've been thinking hard about me during these 2 month. And now, I come back as 4th year medical student with new me InshaALLAH.

Done my first posting of 4th year by finishing Cardio Rehab Posting in Hosp Queen Elizabeth II in Kota Kinabalu Sabah. Im gonna spam with the picture later. Sabah is a very good place with nice people and environment.

currently, in dermatology posting. I had 3 days on and off of high fever on the day I came back to Ipoh. It wasn't really a good start. I threw up twice, my tonsils were swollen like hell and I couldn't swallow anything at all.

so, this is the beginning of real 4th year medical student of mine. :)

I sould write more often since I found back my real self. ;)

#np EXO- Miracle in December

English Translation:

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear

I see things that I couldn’t see before

I hear things that I couldn’t hear before

After you left me, I have grown a power that I didn’t have before

The selfish me who has only thought about myself

The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it

I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much

Your love can still move me like this

If I just think of you, I can fill this world with you

Because each snowdrop is one tear drop that belongs to you

But theres just one thing that I can’t do and it’s to make you come to me

I hope I don’t have this miserable power

The selfish me who has only thought about myself

The me who didn’t know your feelings and ignored it

I couldn’t believe myself that I have changed this much

Your love can still move me like this

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you

I open this book of memories and I open up your page

And in the book I’m in there, in there with you

The small and weak person, because of your love

Just like this for everything (my whole existence)

I changed the whole world

The me who didn’t know how to be thankful for love

The me who thought that the end was the end

To the image of you who wanted me to be, I fixed myself everyday

I think my love will continue on forever

Stopping the time, (I) go back to you

I open this book of memories and I open up your page

And in the book I’m in there, in there with you

The things that I met that winter

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot see

I’m struggling to find you who I cannot hear

Romanized:

Boiji annneun neol chajeuryeogo aesseuda

Deulliji annneun neol deureuryeo aesseuda

 Boiji anteon ge boigo

Deulliji anteon ge deullyeo

Neo nareul tteonan dwiro naegen eopdeon himi saenggyeosseo

Neul nabakke mollasseotdeon igijeogin naega yeah

Ne mamdo mollajwotdeon musimhan naega

Ireokedo dallajyeotdaneun ge najocha mitgiji anha

 Ne sarangeun ireoke gyesok nal umjigyeo

Nan saenggangman hamyeon sesangeul neoro chaeul su isseo eum~

Nunsongi hanaga ne nunmul han bangurinikka

Dan han gaji motaneun geoseun neol naegero oge haneun il

I sseuldeeomneun neungnyeok ijen eobseosseumyeon jokesseo ooh~

Neul nabakke mollasseotdeon igijeogin naega

Ne mamdo mollajwotdeon musimhan naega

Ireokedo dallajyeotdaneun ge najocha mitgiji anha

 Ne sarangeun ireoke gyesok nal umjigyeo

Siganeul meomchwo [D.O] nege doraga

 Chueogui chaegeun [D.O] neoui peijireul yeoreo

Nan geu ane isseo [D.O] oh~

Neowa hamkke inneun geol

 Aju jogeumako yakhan sarami neoui sarangi

 Ireoke modeun geol (nae sarmeul modu)

Bakkun geol (sesangeul modu)

Oh~ sarangi gomaun jul mollasseotdeon naega oh~

Kkeutnamyeon geumanin jul aratdeon naega oh~

Neo wonhaetdeon geu moseup geudaero nalmada nareul gochyeo ga

Nae sarangeun kkeuteobsi gyesokdoel geot gata

Siganeul meomchwo ([D.O] oh! Ije na)

Nege doraga ([Chen] nege doraga)

Chueogui chaegeun ([Chen] oh! Oneuldo)

Neoui peijireul yeoreo

Nan geu ane isseo oh~

Geu gyeoure wainneungeol

Boiji annneun neol chajeuryeogo aesseuda

Deulliji annneun neol deureuryeo aesseuda

Translation Credits: rainydays @ codeexo.com

Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.net

2014 and Life

In the name of Allah the most gracious , the most merciful.

I've been abandoning this blog for almost one year and I came to a time where I start to miss all the immature writing here and all the teen conflicts. I create a wordpress account as I become the writer to a Pembina's page so I think it would be nice if I have a wordpress and practice my writing there. To be honest, I miss this place more. c:

Currently, i'm enjoying my one month holiday after passing my 3rd year in med school which never be easy on me. Suprisingly, my result was better than before as there's improvement in my ranking. Alhamdulillah.

Long journey of third year and forever 21 life already came to an end. Up and down that matures me throughout this whole year, I really don't want to make them as my memory. No. I don't want to remember any each of them.

I decide to stay as who I am before and enjoy as much as life hits me.17 days to my 22's birthday, I wish for a good happy life, cherished with people that actually really see me as who I am, and have blessings for every moment that will come. I do have my bad points but to be with someone that take your bad point to make them look innocently good, I don't go with these crappy people. SORRY. You better get a life. Enough for destroying my life for this one whole year. Go get someone else to make you look like an angel.  4th year ain't going be easy. I need to strive harder. I'm going to give my very best to those that actually really appreciate my work.

This year and coming future, no more relationship. It hurts me a lot. The pain that nobody wanna feel, so big NO. I just realized that how annoying to see/read any post/tweet/or anything similar about marriage, couple , tulang rusuk, menjadi isteri solehah, and what so ever. I used to have those interest but it takes you nowhere man! Bajet hebat talking about completing ' the other half of your deen' . Commenting about 'aaaaaa. dah boleh kahwin ni' . I'm going to block these craps. watch out people. Kita je bajet nak tunjuk bersedia dah nak kahwin, bising macam nak rak, then sedih sebab calon takde. Tak ke mana pun. Yang senyap tu yang kahwin dulu. Marriage, take it seriously. It just not completing the other half of your deen, but a plan to have a family that will commit in your deen, our Islam and it is not SWEET as what we think. It takes a lot of courage as you will carry a BIG responsibility that Allah will ask you in the Hereafter. So, I'm absolutely nowhere near ready. Baru bertunang pun, bising bagai nak rak. dahlah bertunang tu seeloknya dirahsiakan. If you can't get this right in the beginning, how you gonna plan for the future? NO OFFENCE.


OH, that's long. I miss writing this immature feeling again and again.
I have a long list of place to travel. Meeting new travelmates would be very nice. I have my own preferences so please let me choose who I wanna be with.

Penat lah nak jaga hati orang, tak berajak pun terasa. Pernah pulak aku difikiran kan? Oh ya, aku kan takde hati, jadi boleh pijak ajaa.

So, this is my story, my place, my life. Enjoy. :D

Believe Me

Lady with heart,

24 years old,
20th March 1992

Malaysian
Mixed Blood Malay Indian

Medical Doctor

Neurosurgeon; between dream and reality. 
Long way to go.

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"One that fated to do well, will do well"-Rocker Jung

“Memories and thoughts age, just as people do.
But certain thoughts can never age, and certain memories can never fade.”
– Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle