Hati yang Tertawa

In the name of Allah, the most gracious, the most merciful

it had been so rough for me for the past two weeks and i barely can go through everything toughly *ceh
and i'm so homesick. dengan masalah sana sini, jemputan sana sini *bajet tapi betul.

bila semua orang ajak ke program skali, dan saya pengsan sorang sorang kat tengah sebab tak tahu nak pilih yang mana.

jujurnya, dua minggu dengan air mata bukan sesuatu yang mudah untuk ditempuhi dengan sabar. Minggu pertama ramadhan menyapa, saya cuba untuk berdiri kembali tapi tak semudah yang disangka. Bukan tiada sahabat untuk berbicara, tapi perasaan takut untuk berkongsi. Saya sendiri pun tak faham kenapa. -.- pelik dengan diri sendiri.

I just came back from my penang where my home is, where the heart belongs * ntah apa ni HAHA and i actually can put my mind and the right state, think wisely now. Berat hati nak tinggalkan rumah tadi sampai tertinggal kunci rumah sewa kat rumah. HAHA so, sepanjang minggu ni sehingga raya, takde lah kunci rumah saya. Nak pinjam? faham faham lah kenapa. Saya rasa, itulah sebab nya saya tak mahu bercerita masalah saya. HAHA okay, abaikan. Tapi , ada yang dapat hidu ni. Hebatt ! hehe ;)

AD HOC. sudden decision saya buat nak balik penang ni. Di tambah pulak dengan sogokan sahabat sahabat sekeliling. amboi. kemain kan diorang ni. padahal tahu je saya banyak kerja kat kolej. Satu statement yang membuatkan saya sedar tentang sesuatu, tentang tahap kemampuan saya sendiri, ada batasnya. Begitu juga orang lain. Dan kerana itulah saya pilih untuk pulang ke penang, Baiti Jannati yang dirindui dari Taiping . HAHA tiket lagi murah. RM9.00 je. HAHA terkejut denn.

Weekend ni, saya sempat ziarah adik adik kat darul mulkan. selepas merajuk*ni tipu, berperang dan di sogok kek coklat , HAHA dapat jugak ziarah diorang. Bukan apa, banyak tanggung jawab lain sebenarnya. Rasa bersalah pulak nak tinggal. Dan apa yang menariknya, saya seperti dapat keluarga baru. HAHA Macam segan pulak nak cerita kat sini. HAHA. takpelah. lenkali lah cerita nya. HAHA

Going back home put my mind at ease and be able to see your loved ones make my heart smile happily. Laughing with them when they tried to coax me about my phone that lost this week. YES. the HTC Sensation XE that i bought december last year just lost. T.T

Memang la down teramat bila hilang. Bukan apa, phone tu saya beli guna duit sendiri. rasa macam terbang cenggitu je. dua nya, saya sayang messages dalam tu. banyak nya yang memberi semanagat. tiga, i love the system. Kata daddy:" takpelah. bukan rezeki kita. kita hilang phone je, orang lain hilang nyawa. Dont need to cry. " lagi berderulah air mata ni haaaaa.

overall, i love this weekend. it filled with lotsa loveee. MashaAllah. and I cant stop thinking about them. :)

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah

Membina Generasi Bertaqwa

In the name of Allah, the most Gracious, the most Merciful.

Program Membina Generasi Bertaqwa 2012

Tempat: SABK Maahad Yahyawiyah, Pandang Rengas

Tarikh : 22 -24 Jun 2012

Alhamdulillah, 

Another excellent program with new people and new module. 

Learn a lot of things. As for beginner like me, everything was a new thing for me throughout the program. For me, being a facilitator is not easy as I think because you need to fit your mood and the talks according to  what you're trying to achieve or in a simple way is objective of the program. 

I'm so wow-ed with the modules and games ! . They're just great because to make them, you need to be like a very good thinker. 

then,

rushed back for KSSU ! :P

hehe

Jazakallah to everyone. May Allah SWT bless all of our good deeds.

Alhamdulillah. Allahuakbar 

:)(:

stressed up

With the name of Allah , the most merciful
Remember the post about me getting a lot of 'invitation' for this weekend? I'm so happy about that ! Seriouslyy!..... Kill me now if that could make you better.
I'm so stressed up right now. I'm supposed to stay up and revising for my end of module exam but all i do now crying and cursing*maybe* and keep blaming others. I dont who should i blame for all this stress. I'm tired being nice all the time and have to say yes to everything that people asked me to do and ruined everything that i planned months before just because i cant say the damn NO . What's wrong with me seriously? I know they do this to me for good things but sometimes do they really hear what i really really really want? I'm tired . Tired. Tired to not dissappoint any feelings , people around me. I know they actually trust me but you have another thousands people just like me around you to put the trust on. Cant you just rely on them for this time? Just for this time.
I shouldnt blame anybody. Nad, it is that dare to take the reponsibility. You shouldnt point to anyone. You agree to take the reponsibility meaning that you agree to deal with the risks too. You should think about it before you agree qbout anything. You should know the risk of having everything on the same time and you should know which one need to be prioritize , dont you?
And i end up mad at myself for failed to understand everything that i stated above before this. Too mad that i cant focus on my exam this thursday. :-(
Ya Allah, please help me :-(
P/s: i cried in my physio's revision class because i cant focus anything and this thing keep running in my mind. For the first time.

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Teaser

Assalamualaykum wbt and evening !

teaser ? apa ? apa ?

tunggu :)
p/s: doakan exam end of module saya dipermudahkan ye ^^

Oh My !

Assalamualaykum WBT :)

sihat semuanya ? HAHA

situasi 1 :
*tengah membelek belek kalendar. marked on 14th July - BON ODORI ( KL )

situasi 2 :
murobbi : nad, 13-15 july ni akan ada mukhayyam untuk muhib. dengar kata, tempatnya pun cantik .

situasi 3 :
Fasi : Nad, prepare je. mungkin kita nak buat follow up dengan adik adik dlm 13-15 July.

Situasi 4:
senior : korang, 14 July ni ada open netball. Jom la ! Kata rindu semua orang ! hehe ;p

Situasi 5: 
*waktu kelas mandarin. sampai satu surat cinta : Nad, jom habis exam 13 ni kita pegi trekking Gua Tempurung



apa konklusinya ? HAHA menarikkan sentiasa menyibukkan diri :) apa yang dapat dirungkai dari semua situasi di atas ?

HA ! Semua dalam tarikh yang sama ! 13,14,15 July !
macam ni, saya nak kena belah 5 la. Takkpun buat jutsu Naruto jadi enam. Kenapa enam? sebab yang keenam tu nak balik Baiti Jannati ! Rindu mummy and daddy ni. Oh My ! almost 2 months and i dont give myself a break and pampered with all mom's cooking T-T . Pleaseeeee. Give me a break. 1,2 and 3 are the most important events. Seriously, i dont know to decide which one I should go >< . Luckily, the third one is cancelled. Fuhhhh. But still another 4 ongoing events and i dont even decide yet which one i should go.

Homesick. Missing mummy and daddy :( YaAllah. Berikanlah kesihatan yang baik buat mereka :'(
Kakak, Bobo, DipuDipu, and Isha. I miss all of you. :(

mood: Hectic-ness

New Banner

Assalamualaykum wbt.

as i mentioned before, i will make a new banner for you bloggie. HAHA
sounds weird. okay. and finally, done with the banner.
and my photoshop skills are gone T.T . BAD ME .

Alhamdulillah. I managed to create one, but not so awesomee like the previous one . nevermind HAHAHA

I use the second one. HAHA . simply simple. I dont know why but recently, i love the simple thing. HAHA

OH. I will make posts about events that i've joined recently. EXCITED ;D

woot ;D