Remember the post about me getting a lot of 'invitation' for this weekend? I'm so happy about that ! Seriouslyy!..... Kill me now if that could make you better.
I'm so stressed up right now. I'm supposed to stay up and revising for my end of module exam but all i do now crying and cursing*maybe* and keep blaming others. I dont who should i blame for all this stress. I'm tired being nice all the time and have to say yes to everything that people asked me to do and ruined everything that i planned months before just because i cant say the damn NO . What's wrong with me seriously? I know they do this to me for good things but sometimes do they really hear what i really really really want? I'm tired . Tired. Tired to not dissappoint any feelings , people around me. I know they actually trust me but you have another thousands people just like me around you to put the trust on. Cant you just rely on them for this time? Just for this time.
I shouldnt blame anybody. Nad, it is that dare to take the reponsibility. You shouldnt point to anyone. You agree to take the reponsibility meaning that you agree to deal with the risks too. You should think about it before you agree qbout anything. You should know the risk of having everything on the same time and you should know which one need to be prioritize , dont you?
And i end up mad at myself for failed to understand everything that i stated above before this. Too mad that i cant focus on my exam this thursday. :-(
Ya Allah, please help me :-(
P/s: i cried in my physio's revision class because i cant focus anything and this thing keep running in my mind. For the first time.
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