Happy 23 Dear Me

20th March 1992
20th March 2015

Happy 23 dear miny-Me!

I don't expect to have any grand celebration for my own birthday. Haha. Even my parents also forgot my birthday but that is not a big deal.

Having both of them is the best gift ever. Thank you for keeping this cheeky girl alive. Kekekeke.

Taking care of me with full of love and supports me whenever I need.

Year 4 - Case Closed

Currently I'm in the middle of my one month holiday after passing my final year 4. Another tough year had passed.

Medic school is not easy maaaan!
Plus, I'm not that genius. Hahaha.

Alhamdulillah for this achievement.  I'm happy for myself but I'm not in the mood to celebrate this. It means nothing to me when some of my friends didn't make it for the final. Friends that worked together with me for the past years.

Stay strong dear friends. I know you can do it!
Have faith. Try your best and let Allah decide the rest.

I was once failed in my first year and for the first time i feel like so useless that I'm in the verge of giving up in medic school  and people that you expect to support was actually not the real friend. And you'll never expect you gonna meet new people that willing to lend their hand out of nowhere.

Failing is not a bad thing dear friends. Besides to make you study harder, it gives you sweetness of life. How to overcome the intimidating feeling about yourself.
I've been struggling with this trauma of talking in front of people for one year before I can lift my head up.

This struggles make you strong in the future and by the time you facing this kind if problem again, you're going to thank your first time experience. 

Have faith!

#np Climax - Team B

English Translation

You appeared in my dream last night

I couldn't recognize you because you looked older

I was scared, it seemed like this would become my reality

Before I left, I promised you as I held you

I said I would build a house and wait for you

You should’ve just aged but

why did you age so beautifully?

Not making me able to recognize you, my mischievous mom

I missed you like crazy

but couldn’t see yo, my love

I can go anywhere and boldly say, you are my pride

Your smile in the photo is the knife that cuts through the sadness

You became my dream, now what time do you wanna come? 

Tell me I’ll pick you up, my earnest person

I hope my remaining footsteps

Will come to me tonight

At the end of this

moment of running

No limit gon touch the sky

(No limit gon touch the sky)

For me, who has been dreaming

Tonight, throw it away 

At the end of this moment of running

No limit gon touch the sky

No limit gon touch the sky

Touch the sky, touch the sky, touch the sky

Giving up my youth, 

I ran barefoot for three years

After saying a heartless goodbye to my family and friends

Living each day, always nervous about tomorrow

I told them to trust me, that we will succeed for sure

With the weight of not just my life 

but five others on my shoulders, looking for chances

I had no choice but to throw away the pressure and failures

Now I want to see the light so I put my future on the line

The gods asked me if I wasn’t gonna regret this

But I answer without hesitating,

why would I regret?

What’s left behind this stage is either success or failure

I put my everything on the line and there is no next time

My determination has no choice but to be different from others

Even if this is my last time

I will sing without regrets,

I will sing, sing

Yeah, We Flyin’ tonight

Flyin’ tonight Flyin’ tonight

Flyin’

I hope my remaining footsteps

Will come to me tonight

At the end of this

moment of running

No limit gon touch the sky

(No limit gon touch the sky)

For me, who has been dreaming

Tonight, throw it away

At the end of this moment of running

No limit gon touch the sky

No limit gon touch the sky

Touch the sky, touch the sky,

touch the sky

In the passing time

The memories become songs

In this moment, everyone touch the sky

Romanization

eoje nae kkume nawatji

deo neulgeo jin moseub

hagoseon nan mot ara bwatji

museowosseo ige hyeonshiri

doel geotman gata

tteonagi jeone pumsogeseo

yagsog haesseot janha

jib han chae jieo nohgo

naega gidarin daet janha

wae neulgeumyeon neulgeotji

deo areum dabge neulgeoseo

saram mot ara boge hae

jitgujeun uri eomma

michi dorog bogo shipeodo

mot bwatji naui sarang

eodi gaseo dangdanghage

marhae geudaega naui jarang

geudae miso damgin sajin

nae seulpeum gareuneun kalnal

kkumi dwae beorin geudae

eonje myeot shi e ollae marhae

majung nagalge jeil ganjeorhan sarama

namgyeo jyeotdeon

nae baljagug deuri

oneul bam naege daga ogil

dallyeo oni sungan kkeute

No limit gon touch the sky

(No limit gon touch the sky)

kkumkkwo watdeon nareul wihae

oneul bameneun Throw it away

dallyeo oni sungan kkeute

No limit gon touch the sky

No limit gon touch the sky

Touch the sky, touch the sky,

touch the sky

cheongchuneul bachyeoseo maenballo

dallyeo watdeon 3-nyeon Uh

gajoggwa chingudeul gwaui

mushimhan annyeong Uh

naeiri neul buran haetdeon

harureul salmyeonseo

nal mideura marhaetji kkog

seonggong hagetdamyeo Uh

honjaga anin daseot

myeongui insaengeul

eokkaee da jilmeo jigo

chaja danyeotji gihoereul

beotil su bakke eobseosseo

manheun budamgwa shilpaereul

ijeneun bicheul bogo paseo

georeotji miraereul Uh

shini naege mureotji

neo huhoe anhgetnyago

mangseorim eobshi daedabhae

wae huhoe hagetnya go

i mudae dwie namneun geon

ama seonggong anim nago

modeun geol georeotgo

daeumeun eobseo

namdareul su bakke eobtneun

nae gago

jigeumi naui majimag iraedo nan

norae hae huhoe eobtge

nan norae hae norae

Yeah, We Flyin’ oneul bam

Flyin’ oneul bam Flyin’ oneul bam

Flyin’

namgyeo jyeotdeon

nae baljagug deuri

oneul bam naege daga ogil

dallyeo oni sungan kkeute

No limit gon touch the sky

(No limit gon touch the sky)

kkum kkwo watdeon nareul wihae

oneul bameneun Throw it away

dallyeo oni sungan kkeute

No limit gon touch the sky

No limit gon touch the sky

Touch the sky, touch the sky,

touch the sky

seuchyeo gatdeon shigan soge

gieogdeuri noraega doe eo

i sungan en da Touch the sky

credit: https://kkromanized.wordpress.com/2013/11/05/rom-eng-lyrics-win-team-b-climax/

#np Go Up - Team A ( WINNER )

TRANSLATION

We walked endlessly

Following the faraway and smiling light
Wanting toget out of the darkness

and smile brightly as well

My gun is always pointed to the top

So I can shoot the ones who are bigger than me
I’ll treat this stage like a landing strip

So I can jump with a flashy flight

I’m not born with it so my constant effort is my weapon

They say that still waters run deep and grow more

Going over the black lines I drew with my

pen in front of my door when I was young

We fall down, clash, get scarred and get a hole in our hearts

But we don’t need tears even if we fall down hundreds of times

We’ll get up, we’ll go up

Throw all your worries to the sky,
blow up

You have us, get up

Take each others’ hands and put them up,
hands up

We will win over it all

Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

(Let’s go up to the sky, we’ll go up)

Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Yeah, we’ll go up!

I dream but I don’t sleep

I sell my youth for success

Pieces of glass in my shoes

Everytime I walk, I make stamps with red ink, right

Even if friendship is ripped in half

Fond attachment will remain

I step on top of them but

support them at the same time

We’ll link all 110 fingers

and go up, go up

We came up without fear

Chasing after the shining stars above

Because I wanted to shine like the

stars of the dark night sky

I go up on the narrow staircase

Each step I take, I sway

Though it gets heavy,

there’s no other way for us

Even if we fall down

hundreds of times,

We get up, we’ll go up

Throw all your worries to the sky, blow up

You have us, get up

Take each others’ hands and

put them up, hands up

We will win over it all

Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Yeah, we’ll go up!

Our life is a drama, this moment is the highlight

Hoping for a happy ending as we go on top of the camera

In the end, it’s the same, the important thing is you and me

Nothing to lose, nothing to gain,

let’s all go up together

Throw all your worries to the sky, blow up

You have us, get up

Take each others’ hands and put them up, hands up

We will win over it all

Together, Yeah,

we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Let’s go up to the sky, we’ll go up!

Together, Yeah,

we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Yeah, we’ll go up!

ROMANIZATION

kkeutdo eobshi georeo wasseo

jeo meolli utgo itneun

bicheul ttaraseo

kamkamhan eodum sogeseo

nawa nado balgge utgo shipeoseo

hangsang nae chong guneun

wireul hyanghae

naboda deo keun nomeul ssogi wihae

i mudae wireul hwal juro sama

doyag hamyeo hwaryeohan bihaeng

tago nan geo eobshi

kkujun hameul nae mugiro

byeoneun igeul surog

gogaereul deo sugigo

seongjanghae eoril

jeog bangmun ape

peneuro geueo noheun

geomeun seon geu wiro

neomeo jigo budijhyeo sangcheoga

nago gaseumi gumeong nado

uriege nunmureun piryo eobseo

subaeg beon sseureo jyeodo

ireona We’ll go up

geogjeongeun jeo haneul wiro

deonjyeo Blow up

negen uriga itjanha Get up

seoro soneul jabgo wiro deureo

Hands up urin

da igyeonael geoya

Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!

uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!

(Let’s go up to the sky we’ll go up)

Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!

uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!

Yeah we’ll go up!

kkum kkuji man jam jaji anha

seong gongeul damboro

cheong chuneul para

shinbarae yuri jogag

georeum mada bulgeun

dojang jjigeo Right

ujeongeul baneuro jjijeodo

jeongeun nama gieoko

balbgo oreumyeon

seodo mireo jwo

110-gaeui son garag

kkigo wiro Go up!

geobdo eobshi olla wasseo

jeo wie banjjagineun

byeoreul jjochaseo

eoduun bamhaneure

byeol cheoreom nado

banjjagigo shipeoseo

nan jobeun gyedan wie olla

han georeum hangeoreumi

hwicheong georigo

mugeowo jinda haedo uriege

dareun gil ttawin eobseo

subaeg beon sseureo jyeodo

ireona We’ll go up

geogjeongeun jeo haneul wiro

deonjyeo Blow up

negen uriga itjanha Get up

seoro soneul jabgo wiro deureo

Hands up urin

da igyeonael geoya

Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!

uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!

Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!

uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!

Yeah we’ll go up!

uri insaengeun deurama

jigeum sungani Highlight

haepi endingeul baramyeo

kamera wiro olla

gyeolgugeun ttoggata

jungyohan geon neowa na

irheun geotdo irun geotdo

eobseo da hamkke olla

geogjeongeun jeo haneul wiro

deonjyeo Blow up

negen uriga itjanha Get up

seoro soneul jabgo wiro deureo

Hands up urin

da igyeonael geoya

hamkke Yeah

We’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!

Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Let’s go up to the sky we’ll go up!

hamkke Yeah

we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!

uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!

Yeah we’ll go up!

credit : https://kkromanized.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/rom-eng-lyrics-win-team-a-go-up/

Caramel Pudding

I've been craving for something  sweet especially this caramel pudding.  So I decide to make one for my friends and housemates.

So here is the recipe.

The ingredients

• 6 eggs
• Half cup of sugar.  
• 1 can of evaporated creamer
• 1 table spoon of sugar to make the caramalized top.

Utensils

• A pan
• Steamer

First,  put one spoon of sugar on the pan that you want to put the pudding. Spread the sugar evenly.
Heat on small fire and let the sugar crystal melts slowly. Don't heat on high fire because it will make the sugar melt quickly and burned.  Burned melted sugar will taste awfully bitter.  You don't want that. Haha so just melt the sugar until it turner light gold and turn off the fire.  Leave it beside.  It will become hardened when it cools down.

Then, take the 6 eggs, 1 can of evaporated creamer, and half cup of sugar. Mix them together in a blender and blend ! 

1 min is enough.

Next, pour the mixture onto the caramelized sugar in the pan. 

Put the pan in a steamer and steam about 45mins - 1 hour.

After about 1 hour, let it cools down. After that, cut along the edge of the pudding. 

Put a plate on top of the pan and turn it upside down.

Now, you'll get the caramelized sugar on top of the pudding.

WALLA ~

Best served when chilled !

2015 Resolution

Its already 2015.
Another year had passed.
Another one month to go before 4th year final exam.
And I am nowhere near ready.
Cry. Cry. Cry.

So, what is my resolution this year ? That anually typical question.

I don't really have any big goals for this year.
Passing my fourth year and enter final year would be the first and the last wish for this year.
Ace all the observed long case in final year without repeating any posting, that would be enough.
Oh, and I want to save a lot of moneyy this year because I plan for something big in 2016.

And I want to practice my driving skill. I've got the license when I was 18 and never drive since then. Now, I am 23, and need to drive around.

What else? Hurmm.
I guess thats all.

Just that for my new year resolutions.
1. Ace all the exams
2. Save money
3. Practice driving.

What's yours?

Briged Bakti - Kuala Kangsar Day 2

Briged Bakti, Mission Day 2 - 4th Jan 2015

On that day, we focused more on cleaning at different area from the first day. Not many volunteers involved. About 40 of them. I didn't capture a lot of pictures this day because I was busy with something else. It wasn't hectic as first day. Not many houses to be cleaned. 

Firstly, we cleaned the school which was an evacuation center as school will start in another 2 weeks time. Then we went to the two villages that involved with the flood. Nothing much we did there as almost all the houses had already been cleaned.

Many organizations sent volunteers to help and this shows that Malaysia is filled with good heart people. 

Kampung Pengkalan Ikan & Kampung Kelantan. 

I created some awful memories here. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

It was sooooo embarrassing. I met one of my fav people and he recognized me. Unfortunately, I drove him to the wrong direction for many time. Bella was the driver and she totally depend on me for the direction. I was absolutely sure about the direction but ended up I messed up everything. We keep making U turns till when we very sure about the road but they already don't believe in us. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Luckily, we able to bring them to the right place. KUDOS.

Sorry for my bad sense of direction. I really need to improve this. 

Briged Bakti - Kuala Kangsar Day 1

Kuala Kangsar Day 1 - 3rd Jan 2015

Around 60 volunteers involved with this mission and divided into 3 big groups for 3 evacuation centers.

I was glad that I was part of the team. They were fully cooperative and respect each other eventhough that day was the day we met for the first time. High spirited volunteers. 

I was assigned to the third evacuation center, Sekolah Agama Raban and our task were to help the villagers that need help to clean their houses that were hit by flood. Not all the houses can be cleaned. Some of them still submerged in the flood about my calf level. 

It looked worst that what i expect. The smell. The mud. Oh, you may also find fish while cleaning. Not to mention over expand dead rat that may explode on touch. Fortunately we didn't find any reptiles. We delegated our task and divided ourselves to five to six small groups. I find it quite hard for me to clean and update the situation at the same time. Luckily my group members were hardworking. sorry teammates. 

It was a new experience for me. And I love each and every piece of it. 

The situation at one of the victim's house. Initially, the flood water at their wrist's level and it took about 2 weeks for the water to subside. 

I'm in love with this picture. My squad leader with one of the villager on motorbike. Can you see the flood water. After two weeks, it still not fully receded. 

Again, I'm proud of this team. Cooperative and flexible. They are highly recommended for any mission. kekekeke

This time, the flood is quite bad. 

A family lost a shelter from hot and cold.

Kids lost their new school uniform.

May Allah guards and protect them warmly. 

Briged Bakti - Preparation

Briged Bakti PEMBINA is a squad that establish to provide help and support for the needed. The first mission for this squad was the flood mission that hit almost half of Malaysia including Perak. Kuala Kangsar was hit by flood quite bad I consider, because the last time it was be drowned by flood was 1986, about 28 years ago. 

I involved with this mission as a photographer and reporter. Adhoc planning, uncooperative radiology posting, and unwell committees summarizes the hectic two weeks. But we still try our best to help those people that their house severely damaged by the flood.

Preparation

We organized two donation events for the flood victims. Basically, we collected basic necessities like clothes, foods, diapers, hygiene items -toothbrush, soaps, etc and some funds to buy some other stuff that needed by the victims.

Alhamdulillah, such an overwhelming response that we had. People everywhere from around Perak came and donated as much as they could. I was surprised by those good samaritans. 

Thank you for all the volunteers that help us arranged and sorted all the donations. 

We shopped till drop !

6 full trolleys, and we know, it will never be enough to those unfortunate people. May this little deeds give them a little comfort.