Thursday, March 17, 2016

Final Year Moments

Final Year.
Final Year.
Final Year.

I never felt this horrible, anxious, ahh I don't know how to describe my feeling.
After all 5 years in med school, the final year exam result announcement day  was the final of the final.
I cannot sleep, cannot sit still and cannot do anything. I keep thinking about my result. I have so many plan if I pass, but what if I fail??

When I arrived at college that noon. I saw Jabb and Yusra. So proud of them because they are so excellent that they sit for Viva Distinction. I hugged Jabb and congratulate her and suddenly both of us cried.. AHAHAHAHA. why? I don't know. A lot of things running in my mind that time. 

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And when they announced the result and Alhamdulillah, I pass !
and again, all the five years in RCMP, all the moments passing through my eyes. 

Alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah
Alhamdulliah.

Med school is not easy. not easy. Full of tears and everyday, I wake up with hope that i can remember everything that I learn yesterday and today and day before and before and before. 
I don't want to disappoint my parents that have their high hopes on me. They have been spending life and money on me so how can I disappoint them. I KENOT !

and 

Alhamdulillah. 

Friday, March 20, 2015

Happy 23 Dear Me

20th March 1992
20th March 2015

Happy 23 dear miny-Me!

I don't expect to have any grand celebration for my own birthday. Haha. Even my parents also forgot my birthday but that is not a big deal.

Having both of them is the best gift ever. Thank you for keeping this cheeky girl alive. Kekekeke.
Taking care of me with full of love and supports me whenever I need.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Year 4 - Case Closed

Currently I'm in the middle of my one month holiday after passing my final year 4. Another tough year had passed.

Medic school is not easy maaaan!
Plus, I'm not that genius. Hahaha.

Alhamdulillah for this achievement.  I'm happy for myself but I'm not in the mood to celebrate this. It means nothing to me when some of my friends didn't make it for the final. Friends that worked together with me for the past years.

Stay strong dear friends. I know you can do it!
Have faith. Try your best and let Allah decide the rest.

I was once failed in my first year and for the first time i feel like so useless that I'm in the verge of giving up in medic school  and people that you expect to support was actually not the real friend. And you'll never expect you gonna meet new people that willing to lend their hand out of nowhere.

Failing is not a bad thing dear friends. Besides to make you study harder, it gives you sweetness of life. How to overcome the intimidating feeling about yourself.
I've been struggling with this trauma of talking in front of people for one year before I can lift my head up.

This struggles make you strong in the future and by the time you facing this kind if problem again, you're going to thank your first time experience. 

Have faith!

Sunday, March 8, 2015

#np Climax - Team B



English Translation

You appeared in my dream last night
I couldn't recognize you because you looked older
I was scared, it seemed like this would become my reality
Before I left, I promised you as I held you
I said I would build a house and wait for you
You should’ve just aged but
why did you age so beautifully?
Not making me able to recognize you, my mischievous mom
I missed you like crazy
but couldn’t see yo, my love
I can go anywhere and boldly say, you are my pride
Your smile in the photo is the knife that cuts through the sadness
You became my dream, now what time do you wanna come? 
Tell me I’ll pick you up, my earnest person

I hope my remaining footsteps
Will come to me tonight
At the end of this
moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
(No limit gon touch the sky)

For me, who has been dreaming
Tonight, throw it away 
At the end of this moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
No limit gon touch the sky
Touch the sky, touch the sky, touch the sky

Giving up my youth, 
I ran barefoot for three years
After saying a heartless goodbye to my family and friends
Living each day, always nervous about tomorrow
I told them to trust me, that we will succeed for sure
With the weight of not just my life 
but five others on my shoulders, looking for chances
I had no choice but to throw away the pressure and failures
Now I want to see the light so I put my future on the line
The gods asked me if I wasn’t gonna regret this
But I answer without hesitating,
why would I regret?
What’s left behind this stage is either success or failure
I put my everything on the line and there is no next time
My determination has no choice but to be different from others

Even if this is my last time
I will sing without regrets,
I will sing, sing
Yeah, We Flyin’ tonight
Flyin’ tonight Flyin’ tonight
Flyin’

I hope my remaining footsteps
Will come to me tonight
At the end of this
moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
(No limit gon touch the sky)

For me, who has been dreaming
Tonight, throw it away
At the end of this moment of running
No limit gon touch the sky
No limit gon touch the sky
Touch the sky, touch the sky,
touch the sky

In the passing time
The memories become songs

In this moment, everyone touch the sky


Romanization

eoje nae kkume nawatji
deo neulgeo jin moseub
hagoseon nan mot ara bwatji
museowosseo ige hyeonshiri
doel geotman gata
tteonagi jeone pumsogeseo
yagsog haesseot janha
jib han chae jieo nohgo
naega gidarin daet janha
wae neulgeumyeon neulgeotji
deo areum dabge neulgeoseo
saram mot ara boge hae
jitgujeun uri eomma
michi dorog bogo shipeodo
mot bwatji naui sarang
eodi gaseo dangdanghage
marhae geudaega naui jarang
geudae miso damgin sajin
nae seulpeum gareuneun kalnal
kkumi dwae beorin geudae
eonje myeot shi e ollae marhae
majung nagalge jeil ganjeorhan sarama

namgyeo jyeotdeon
nae baljagug deuri
oneul bam naege daga ogil
dallyeo oni sungan kkeute
No limit gon touch the sky
(No limit gon touch the sky)

kkumkkwo watdeon nareul wihae
oneul bameneun Throw it away
dallyeo oni sungan kkeute
No limit gon touch the sky
No limit gon touch the sky
Touch the sky, touch the sky,
touch the sky

cheongchuneul bachyeoseo maenballo
dallyeo watdeon 3-nyeon Uh
gajoggwa chingudeul gwaui
mushimhan annyeong Uh
naeiri neul buran haetdeon
harureul salmyeonseo
nal mideura marhaetji kkog
seonggong hagetdamyeo Uh
honjaga anin daseot
myeongui insaengeul
eokkaee da jilmeo jigo
chaja danyeotji gihoereul
beotil su bakke eobseosseo
manheun budamgwa shilpaereul
ijeneun bicheul bogo paseo
georeotji miraereul Uh
shini naege mureotji
neo huhoe anhgetnyago
mangseorim eobshi daedabhae
wae huhoe hagetnya go
i mudae dwie namneun geon
ama seonggong anim nago
modeun geol georeotgo
daeumeun eobseo
namdareul su bakke eobtneun
nae gago

jigeumi naui majimag iraedo nan
norae hae huhoe eobtge
nan norae hae norae
Yeah, We Flyin’ oneul bam
Flyin’ oneul bam Flyin’ oneul bam
Flyin’

namgyeo jyeotdeon
nae baljagug deuri
oneul bam naege daga ogil
dallyeo oni sungan kkeute
No limit gon touch the sky
(No limit gon touch the sky)

kkum kkwo watdeon nareul wihae
oneul bameneun Throw it away
dallyeo oni sungan kkeute
No limit gon touch the sky
No limit gon touch the sky
Touch the sky, touch the sky,
touch the sky

seuchyeo gatdeon shigan soge
gieogdeuri noraega doe eo

i sungan en da Touch the sky

credit: https://kkromanized.wordpress.com/2013/11/05/rom-eng-lyrics-win-team-b-climax/


Saturday, February 28, 2015

#np Go Up - Team A ( WINNER )


TRANSLATION

We walked endlessly
Following the faraway and smiling light
Wanting toget out of the darkness
and smile brightly as well

My gun is always pointed to the top
So I can shoot the ones who are bigger than me
I’ll treat this stage like a landing strip
So I can jump with a flashy flight
I’m not born with it so my constant effort is my weapon
They say that still waters run deep and grow more
Going over the black lines I drew with my
pen in front of my door when I was young

We fall down, clash, get scarred and get a hole in our hearts
But we don’t need tears even if we fall down hundreds of times
We’ll get up, we’ll go up

Throw all your worries to the sky,
blow up
You have us, get up
Take each others’ hands and put them up,
hands up
We will win over it all

Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!
(Let’s go up to the sky, we’ll go up)
Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!
Yeah, we’ll go up!

I dream but I don’t sleep
I sell my youth for success
Pieces of glass in my shoes
Everytime I walk, I make stamps with red ink, right
Even if friendship is ripped in half
Fond attachment will remain
I step on top of them but
support them at the same time
We’ll link all 110 fingers
and go up, go up

We came up without fear
Chasing after the shining stars above
Because I wanted to shine like the
stars of the dark night sky
I go up on the narrow staircase

Each step I take, I sway
Though it gets heavy,
there’s no other way for us
Even if we fall down
hundreds of times,
We get up, we’ll go up

Throw all your worries to the sky, blow up
You have us, get up
Take each others’ hands and
put them up, hands up
We will win over it all

Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!
Yeah, we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!
Yeah, we’ll go up!

Our life is a drama, this moment is the highlight
Hoping for a happy ending as we go on top of the camera
In the end, it’s the same, the important thing is you and me
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain,
let’s all go up together

Throw all your worries to the sky, blow up
You have us, get up
Take each others’ hands and put them up, hands up
We will win over it all

Together, Yeah,
we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Let’s go up to the sky, we’ll go up!
Together, Yeah,
we’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!
Yeah, we’ll go up!


ROMANIZATION

kkeutdo eobshi georeo wasseo
jeo meolli utgo itneun
bicheul ttaraseo
kamkamhan eodum sogeseo
nawa nado balgge utgo shipeoseo

hangsang nae chong guneun
wireul hyanghae
naboda deo keun nomeul ssogi wihae
i mudae wireul hwal juro sama
doyag hamyeo hwaryeohan bihaeng
tago nan geo eobshi
kkujun hameul nae mugiro
byeoneun igeul surog
gogaereul deo sugigo
seongjanghae eoril
jeog bangmun ape
peneuro geueo noheun
geomeun seon geu wiro

neomeo jigo budijhyeo sangcheoga
nago gaseumi gumeong nado
uriege nunmureun piryo eobseo
subaeg beon sseureo jyeodo
ireona We’ll go up

geogjeongeun jeo haneul wiro
deonjyeo Blow up
negen uriga itjanha Get up
seoro soneul jabgo wiro deureo
Hands up urin
da igyeonael geoya

Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!
uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!
(Let’s go up to the sky we’ll go up)
Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!
uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!
Yeah we’ll go up!

kkum kkuji man jam jaji anha
seong gongeul damboro
cheong chuneul para
shinbarae yuri jogag
georeum mada bulgeun
dojang jjigeo Right
ujeongeul baneuro jjijeodo
jeongeun nama gieoko
balbgo oreumyeon
seodo mireo jwo
110-gaeui son garag
kkigo wiro Go up!

geobdo eobshi olla wasseo
jeo wie banjjagineun
byeoreul jjochaseo
eoduun bamhaneure
byeol cheoreom nado
banjjagigo shipeoseo
nan jobeun gyedan wie olla

han georeum hangeoreumi
hwicheong georigo
mugeowo jinda haedo uriege
dareun gil ttawin eobseo
subaeg beon sseureo jyeodo
ireona We’ll go up

geogjeongeun jeo haneul wiro
deonjyeo Blow up
negen uriga itjanha Get up
seoro soneul jabgo wiro deureo
Hands up urin
da igyeonael geoya

Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!
uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!
Yeah we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!
uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!
Yeah we’ll go up!

uri insaengeun deurama
jigeum sungani Highlight
haepi endingeul baramyeo
kamera wiro olla
gyeolgugeun ttoggata
jungyohan geon neowa na
irheun geotdo irun geotdo
eobseo da hamkke olla

geogjeongeun jeo haneul wiro
deonjyeo Blow up
negen uriga itjanha Get up
seoro soneul jabgo wiro deureo
Hands up urin
da igyeonael geoya

hamkke Yeah
We’ll go up! Uh uh uh up!
Uh uh uh up! Uh uh uh up!

Let’s go up to the sky we’ll go up!
hamkke Yeah
we’ll go up! uh uh uh up!
uh uh uh up! uh uh uh up!
Yeah we’ll go up!


credit : https://kkromanized.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/rom-eng-lyrics-win-team-a-go-up/